You know, the normal kid stuff is hard. Constantly cleaning up messes, getting into everything, pushing your buttons, throwing your favorite plant off the dinner table. Did I mention cleaning up messes? Man it's hard to keep it together when you're already exhausted from diabetes. You take them on an outing for only like two hours and you come home and could sleep for a week but you can't because his blood sugar isn't cooperating so you have to stay up and check it every hour. We have been trying to do some Christmas things but I think all we have accomplished so far is getting our tree from the farm (previous post) and decorating the house. But now we have snow!!! Which just makes everything magical and Christmasy (is that a word?) without me having to do anything. Ha! Even our family of quail that come visit every winter has been fluttering about out in the snow. So what am I going to do? I'm going to stay inside and watch the snow with my boys. I'm not going to feel guilty about not taking Ocean on more outings. I'm going to bake Christmas cookies and let Ocean decorate them. And I'm going to color my Christmas coloring book. And read. And cuddle. Lots of cuddling.

And again, let go of the guilt. We are together. We are as healthy as we can be. And we are loved.