Ocean my son! Though you cannot speak, you are feeling closer to me – often taking me by the hand to lead me to a new and wonders discovery you have made, or to share a TV show, or pay a visit to the fridge. Today I sang a song to you, song my mother used to sing – "the little blue man" – and you laughed and laughed wanting to be tickled more and more, as I sang through the "I love you, I love you" parts! I think you would have enjoyed her – perhaps you remember her somewhere from the field beyond, before you came to us? Your diabetes is beyond managing, and you have lost your appetite for most things except chocolate, chips and pizza. Still you bless us with your smiles, adventurous spirit and endless curiosity. These are just a few of your mannerisms that bring us joy and make it so easy to love you! Never let someone – even if it is your parents, earthly or otherwise – take your self from you! If ever you find yourself there, step back into the light that is you and plot new course. We are the light.

I love you my dear son, Dad. 1.17.17